Comments on: gone nowhere

By: Hugh

Hugh — Wed, 10 Sep 2008 03:29:26 +0000

Man, that is harsh. I wish you hope in finding the other side.

By: Dawn Brockman

Dawn Brockman — Tue, 09 Sep 2008 14:08:21 +0000

Josie,

An odd place to say, “hey”, but this is the only place where I see you lately.

How are you? Creating much lately?

By: Josie

Josie — Tue, 09 Sep 2008 07:22:05 +0000

woah woah woah… electric shocks, researchers…?!
V has the ability to recover, she can do it. But it’s motivation and values that’s the issue here, not how difficult it is.
That’s just my opinion.

By: anne

anne — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 23:17:54 +0000

There is so much we’ve yet to learn about the brain, about eating disorders.

I would still suggest talking to the very best of the best…Walter Kaye, Cynthia Bulik. They just might be able to recommend a way to help. They are researchers. I have been totally impressed by them.

And I am impressed by your determination and desire too.

By: Dawn Brockman

Dawn Brockman — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 20:35:28 +0000

You’ve accomplished a lot more than you credit yourself with, Vanessa. If you read your writing today versus a few months ago, it might be apparent to you. You are growing stronger. You just completed 7 days without a binge or purge. This is a hard and often long process.

By: NChe

NChe — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 16:45:15 +0000

I’m going to shock you, tell you a true story, suggest you try something you won’t be able to believe, I could be so dense. Here goes, anyway. Brain chemistry and structure are contained in our body/mind. When it seemed all else failted, literally, Laura agreed to a series of shock treatments. The change was astounding. Did it cure everything from that day forward. Of course not. Did it help her move forward – yes.
I can see you sitting on the floor, cat in lap, shaking your head in disbelief that anyone would come up with a suggestion like maybe a consideration of a method or treatment not yet tried or thought of should be put on the table.
Now hear this. Your parents didn’t waste one penny on your efforts to move forward in your struggle. If you never moved an inch, which you did, not one penny would have been wasted. What better way to use money that in support of a loved one’s efforts.
I am not advocating that you should consider shock treatments. The idea came into my head and I tossed it out there.
Keep asking the hard questions. You always do. Stop thinking anyone wasted anything, money or otherwise, on you – If anyone thinks they have wasted money or whatever, I’m afraid I can’t relate to values such as that one.

By: vive42

vive42 — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 11:23:15 +0000

thanks everyone. i definitely needed to hear some of that.

to Josie- about finding something to occupy and interest me, that’s the real problem, i think. that whether due to depression, anxiety, eating disorder, or laziness i can’t seem to do anything in that area. it’s like i can’t do anything because i binge and purge, and i binge and purge because i’m not doing anything.

By: Josie

Josie — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 09:11:20 +0000

Spot all all-or-nothing/perfectionist thinking going on here V

You can’t recover unless you want to and there’s something on the other side. Or alternately something so frightening about continuing that you don’t want to. Maybe your focus should be less on not b/p-ing each day, but more about finding meaning in your life – something to occupy and interest you.

By: Lola Snow

Lola Snow — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 05:06:36 +0000

Ditto to warrior. You could argue that we are all “Cyber aquaintances” but you are the same to us too. I assure you I am very real, very alone and also feel that I am a drain on society. When i read your posts, sometimes you write things which i have been trying to phrase for years, but have been unable to, and it makes everything more bearable. If that is being a total loser, then there is little hope for the rest of humanity. Existential Crisis’ come hand in hand with mental illness. Like it or not, you are sick, with an illness which destroys self worth, and makes a person sabotage their own recovery. Its not your fault, and despite your lack of insight into your own value, you are a worthwhile person. Sorry to harp on, but sometimes we just need to be told when we are having grey days.
Good Thoughts
Lola x

By: warrior

warrior — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 00:38:30 +0000

does it count that you have helped out plenty of other people – me included – just by writing over the internet. imagine if you met people. just throwing it out there. =)