Some More of God’s Greatest Mistakes

i’m not sure why, but something broke yesterday evening and i’m feeling both more positive emotionally and also stronger and able to fight my ed.  i was sort of daydreaming and i came up with a new story world of pirates that sail on the outskirts of our dreams taking anything valuable we dream about before we wake up and it disappears.  and all of a sudden i had a passion for writing the story and knew i needed to eat something so i’d be able to focus enough to get it down.  and from there things have continued on a much more even keel than the black hold of disorder/depression i had been falling into lately.

i’m sure i’ll have many more ups and downs, but i was really desperate for an up, i was sinking fast for a few days there.  *whew* i’m just relieved to feel a little better.

today i’ve done well with food!  no throwing up so far (yay) and overall i feel like this is a fight i can win, and i want to win it!