Comments on: if i realised i was the one in the mirror http://blameful.wordpress.com/2008/03/20/if-i-realised-i-was-the-one-in-the-mirror/ this is just a jam Mon, 07 Dec 2009 22:39:56 +0000 http://wordpress.com/ hourly 1 By: vive42 http://blameful.wordpress.com/2008/03/20/if-i-realised-i-was-the-one-in-the-mirror/#comment-481 vive42 Thu, 20 Mar 2008 11:30:08 +0000 http://blameful.wordpress.com/?p=127#comment-481 valid-i, i do admit to being a bit down recently. but the story was inspired by a particular person's story that i heard about on the radio. you can read about it here: http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=19096131 i don't personally believe that the existance of evil disproves god, but i find the idea of a christian truly confronting the problem head on and finding themselves unable to continue their faith both noble and tragic. valid-i, i do admit to being a bit down recently. but the story was inspired by a particular person’s story that i heard about on the radio. you can read about it here: http://www.npr.org/templates/story/story.php?storyId=19096131

i don’t personally believe that the existance of evil disproves god, but i find the idea of a christian truly confronting the problem head on and finding themselves unable to continue their faith both noble and tragic.

]]> By: valid-i http://blameful.wordpress.com/2008/03/20/if-i-realised-i-was-the-one-in-the-mirror/#comment-479 valid-i Thu, 20 Mar 2008 10:07:45 +0000 http://blameful.wordpress.com/?p=127#comment-479 I returned, because I regret my previous post. I had a point, but I’m afraid I expressed it in displeasing manner. I have seen “a salmon” battle against the current to bring forth her offspring - in a way - and it was horrible, but at the same time joyous because the concentration (also, and especially the mother’s) was on the person to be born and not on the suffering of the mother. What I’m trying to say here, is that there has to be the earnestly looked-for “offspring” otherwise the battle is pure torture. It is very, very important to know what you are fighting for, and the victory that you vision, needs to be SO wonderful that it beats the pain minute after minute, after minute. I returned, because I regret my previous post. I had a point, but I’m afraid I expressed it in displeasing manner.

I have seen “a salmon” battle against the current to bring forth her offspring – in a way – and it was horrible, but at the same time joyous because the concentration (also, and especially the mother’s) was on the person to be born and not on the suffering of the mother.
What I’m trying to say here, is that there has to be the earnestly looked-for “offspring” otherwise the battle is pure torture. It is very, very important to know what you are fighting for, and the victory that you vision, needs to be SO wonderful that it beats the pain minute after minute, after minute.

]]> By: valid-i http://blameful.wordpress.com/2008/03/20/if-i-realised-i-was-the-one-in-the-mirror/#comment-478 valid-i Thu, 20 Mar 2008 06:23:39 +0000 http://blameful.wordpress.com/?p=127#comment-478 Dear Vanessa, you are obviously very down : ( No one has a fixed role of a “warning example”. What ever are your circumstances might be, God has given you free agency to move from one side of the mirror to the other. I’m not saying there are no blocks, enormous blocks! I’m just saying God has not given you a set role. I know my words are not necessarily pleasing, I too, as handicapped person, often hope I had a permission to give up and just “be” for my fight seems so much harder and longer than other people’s fights. I wish I was assured I had a set, unbreakable role of an inferior and incapable, I wish I was forced to take in I was a true slave everybody knew for a fact had no chance to escape, so that I didn’t have to try no more … but looking deeper in my heart I see I would feel the absolute worst, if God ever stopped believing I can escape, and run! and win! I have this feeling that you fight against overeating to feed your anorexia, not necessarily to recover, and that’s why I denied recovery was the salmons' ride. I know recovery is hard, but it’s not hellish after you wholeheartedly miss real life more than you love your slim figure. I’m sorry for saying that. I know I have arrived in the middle of an accident scene and better help is needed than my shaking out of the stunned, bleeding victim. I wish I knew how to be a feminine hand holder and a fondler, but unfortunately that’s not me. You take care. Dear Vanessa, you are obviously very down : (

No one has a fixed role of a “warning example”. What ever are your circumstances might be, God has given you free agency to move from one side of the mirror to the other. I’m not saying there are no blocks, enormous blocks! I’m just saying God has not given you a set role.
I know my words are not necessarily pleasing, I too, as handicapped person, often hope I had a permission to give up and just “be” for my fight seems so much harder and longer than other people’s fights. I wish I was assured I had a set, unbreakable role of an inferior and incapable, I wish I was forced to take in I was a true slave everybody knew for a fact had no chance to escape, so that I didn’t have to try no more … but looking deeper in my heart I see I would feel the absolute worst, if God ever stopped believing I can escape, and run! and win!

I have this feeling that you fight against overeating to feed your anorexia, not necessarily to recover, and that’s why I denied recovery was the salmons’ ride. I know recovery is hard, but it’s not hellish after you wholeheartedly miss real life more than you love your slim figure.
I’m sorry for saying that. I know I have arrived in the middle of an accident scene and better help is needed than my shaking out of the stunned, bleeding victim. I wish I knew how to be a feminine hand holder and a fondler, but unfortunately that’s not me.

You take care.

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